Reflecting on the last 10 years of adulthood.
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| My first day at being 30! |
The
mood swings, the hot flashes, unpredictable irritability, no I’m not
talking about menopause, I’m talking about turning 30! I’ve been trying
to mentally prepare myself from leaving my 20’s, but I can’t quite
shake the fear of going into this new decade. I guess its because this
is not the life I envisioned I would have at 30.
My 30 year old self as thought up by my 5, 10, 15, & 20 year old self is as follows:
- Married to an ambitious worthy Mormon priesthood holder
- My husband works a simple 9-5 job that pays enough for me to stay home and be a homemaker
- 2 kids, thinking about our third
- A home of our own, 4 bed 3bath, white picket fence, small garden in the back
- Cute, cuddly dog. Possibly a fish, if one of the kids is learning about them in school or something
- 2 conservative and safe cars that fit everyone comfortably, probably a Toyota or Honda
That’s
pretty much it, not too much to ask for, and I totally thought I was
going to get it. The ever so revealing and psychic game of M.A.S.H has
turned out to be a complete and utter fraud.
The reality of the last 10 years:
- Went to Rochester, New York for 18months on a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
- Paid for my mission myself
- I bought a Mazda2, which I drove for 3 months, and is now sitting in UT trying to be sold.
- Got my heart broken
- Put it back together!
- I graduated from Utah Valley University in Community Health Education and Digital Media. 3.7 GPA
- Hade a successful work life for the past 15 years working at a Dentist Office, Nordstrom, and Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center, with a few odd jobs in between.Moved to New York City!
Definitely different from my perfect vision. So many curve balls.
When
I turned 28, I was told by the Sweetest Scottish Dr. that I've been
living my life at half capacity. I spent all of 2013-14 getting my
blood drawn every 3 weeks keeping track of different numbers, and blood levels,
in attempt to figure out my body. In her cute Scottish accent Dr. Esme
said " Laura, don't give up. I'm not going to give up." Because of her
diligence in working with me for over a year, I have the chance to
start my "ahem", 30's, off at at least 3/4 capacity. Knowing this gives
me hope for more success and more adventure in this coming decade.
Currently
I am working on my street cred while I live in one of the "sketchiest"
hoods in Harlem. I already have a street name which is "Little Red
Riding Hood". Hopefully that will keep me safe while I'm living in
"Zombie Land", which is what the local authorities call my
neighborhood.
Things are looking up, and I'm not
using a sarcastic tone when I say this. I have good people in my life,
and work for a great company. I'm gonna put the good vibes out into the
Universe and say, " I'm looking forward to being 30!"
Much Love,
Lolo
